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Exit During the Entering

Once upon a time, I worked in health as a nurse.  A key principle when working on a ward was to plan for discharge on admission, thinking about the exit during the entering. It helped with treatment planning. I don’t do that work now. 

When I started this residency, there was no way I wanted to think about it coming to the end. But 12 weeks is twelve weeks, time passes, and I catch myself thinking about how to wrap it all up, planning to ensure I have captured as many recordings, and as much other material, as possible, especially with a view to the coming year.

When I think about the shape of 2025, the first few months will be busy assembling the recordings into albums. At present, there will be at least two, one of solo works, and a second of exquisite excerpts from the collaborative recordings gathered during this time. Also there will be an exhibition, scheduled for June at Toi Pōneke, and this will be the grand culmination of this residency, the release of the albums, a sound installation, and accompanying media like video and pictures. I’m also in the early stages of blocking a tour of Aotearoa in July, from top to bottom [if you are interested in a show in your town, then please make contact]. And towards the end of the year, both Chrissie and I are going to Tainan, Taiwan, for a residency.

There have been some substantial life changes in recent years. This has, in its own way, moved these opportunities into focus. For the next few years, the primary efforts are to apply maximum effort to see where this project might go. To commit my finite time to see how this work can develop. All the previous projects, tours, and paraphernalia have been gleaned in the spare spaces around a life of full-time work and parenting. I see this, now, as my one chance to push the potential of this project as far as my bravery will take me, and without expectation. The doing is a success. 

Someone asked me if I’d like to continue with a hired studio so I could come and go as I please in an ongoing way. I feel the answer for now is, “No thanks”. I like the delineation of time, the finite space, and the limited resources. The idea of time ticking away helps me to focus my attention. I work better if I have a clear idea of my limitations, boundaries, or some provocation to work towards/against. I would be useless if I had access to all the toys all of the time. It’s one of the reasons I like my limited drum kit. It has specific dimensions, tones, and voices, but I am constantly exploring to see how far I can push these set parameters into new areas that will be interesting to me. It’s like the entry point is set and fixed, but I’m constantly searching for new exits.

Defience on a powerpole

This was the week of the Toitū the Tiriti Hīkoi. Estimates of between 45,000 to 100,000 people gathered in the city to oppose The Treaty Principles Bill, proposed and pushed by the right wing party, ACT. It is a dog whistle for racist politics and behaviour, and an extraordinary waste of money given ACT’s coalition partner said they will not support any further. And some astute analysis has pointed out that this has nothing much to do with equity or equality of race politics, but more to do with the removing of any obstacle for corporations as they eye up resources for exploitation. It was a remarkable gathering to be among, incredibly focused, uplifting, and clear in purpose and message. It is the largest protest in this country’s history. It was not the end of a process but a start. Tiriti forever!

The various assembled instruments of Kedron Parker. Photo: K Parker.

This weeks collaboration partners were musician David Long, sound artist and photographer Kedron Parker, and son Nico Buhne. Each session was incredibly different from the other. David brought cello, acoustic guitar, and effect pedals. Kedron brought hand-made drums, a two-string viola, random percussion, voices, and other sound making nic-nacs. Nico brought a trumpet and tootled beautifully. Both fantastic sessions, which are cooling their heals on a hard drive, as I need some distance between the recording and the mixing. This boundary is essential.

Percussive petals inside drums, inside drums Photo: K Parker

Soundbitten:

  1. It gathers like wind in restless trees or baritone bees. Not hive mind, but like-mind. Individual x thousands. 10,000 sing, unison in union. Over the hush of 12,000 a Kuia calls. 20,000 in tune. 30,000 walk the talk, 40,000 vocal, 50,000 loud. Numbers are drowned out. It sounds like carnival, kids, music, chant, laughter, haka, solidarity, opposition, a position.
  2. 12 women’s fingers resonate the mouths of wine glasses. Old men beat a table with canes, slam books, teach pain. The sauna roars with laughter, amplifies the shame. Madonna screams at photographers, fights the paparazzi, wrestles them into stones. The music is the metal of strings and of metal. Jarman’s Garden is full of silence till the sound comes. Lights…
  3. It’s her mother’s flower, her late mother. Although the flower is cut from the root, it contains the energy of life from the cells within, decaying. She lost her, recently, it’s still fresh. Fresh like a flower removed from the stem. But with two sensors on the greenery, essence appears, invisible but audible. And she can interact in any way she sees fit. We hear her.
  4. He speaks words – they hear lies – they hear facts. He talks to camera – they hear inflammatory – they hear solidarity. He says sentences – they hear confusion – they hear inclusion. Like all good performers, he knows his audience. He’s going to make it all great again. They applaud. He shouts at them. They cheer. The music must be loud. He dances.
  5. It’s a box of sound reels but no machine to translate. Those voices lost, there but trapped, obsolete. A suitcase full of cassettes, duplicates, one-offs, moments captured on magnetic magic, parts of parts of the past frozen in time, sometimes in 4/4, sometimes 5/4. Under a container of CDs, burned but cooked, new tech that has already met with entropy.

The Physics of the Swing

“How do you stop the paper twisting?”, he asks.

It’s something I’ve been thinking about for a while as I prepare some pictures for an exhibition. I want them to float off the wall, hanging from each other at 40mm distance, and have a breath-like flutter. Flutter is not the right word, I’m after a rigidity of movement, something like an articulation. If the paper is too paperly and the connections are lightweight, then the overall assemblage twists. I want to be able to dictate the physics of the swing.

The architecture of the paper needs to be bolstered. On the back of the sheets, disassembled bamboo mats become the near- invisible framing. For the pictures to hang from each other, I make something like a big staple from sturdier wire, which has less intrinsic movement. These are then spray painted with a bright orange to light the mood of its weightiness. It achieves what I’m looking for.

Tuesday. I can not make it work. I’ve spent the last 90 minutes trudging this equipment downstairs, setting it up to record, and now nothing. Has it been damaged it in the move? Why is that always the first thought? It was working fine before but now only silence. For 10 minutes, all the lights have been flashing like a trashy disco, but not a peep of sound. Check cables, sensors, connections, and power supplies. I look for the obviously simple reasons before catastrophising options arrive. 

However, the answer to this issue is simpler. It appears that the fungi are withholding their signals. Sleepy fungi. I spray a bit of water onto the mushrooms. The moisture improves the transfer of signal-to-sensor. I reconnect the sensors to the damp flesh and sound bursts into life, with life, from life. 

I’ve made this mistake before.

In the beginning, before this project was a project, I had no idea what a modular synthesizer was. When my first modules arrived, I could not make them work. I leaned on the wisdom of Issac, the only person I knew locally who was informed about such arcane things. He generously lent me gear and knowledge.

Perhaps it was during the second ‘lesson’.

Isaac came over home one evening. Huddling over the equipment, watching closely as he looked skillful in his extraction bleeps and bloops of sound. We were completely focused on the machinery. At some point, though, without obvious reason, sound stopped. I watched on as Issac problem-solved – checking cables, connections, etc. He appeared mystified, I was beyond lost and unable to help. Some inkling prompted him to poke the plant. Then, as if re-energised, sound returned. Should I anthropomorphize the moment, I would think it was the plant playing tricks on us, going, “Oi!! … I’m here as well, get your head out of your geek, and pay attention!!” Such rude foliage. But it’s got a point.

This was a small act of relearning, of where ‘else’ to place attention and consideration. That it needs to be in more places than one. How often do I need to be reminded that invisible things have influence? The world is haunted by unseen things and their own connections. We are at the mercy of the obscure and opaque.

Back to Tuesday. With the sound issues resolved, I set about re-recording a piece from last week. I didn’t have enough microphone stands, so I dangled cables from the aluminum framing holding up the suspended ceiling. I suspended two microphones, one over the rack tom and the other over the floor tom. If I clumsily bump the mic, it will start to swing over the drum. The movement of the mic collected the sounds emanating from the skin as it approached, traveled across, and departed from the drum as it swung through its arc.

I realise I can use this clumsy action with good effect. I reset the mics over the drums and let them swing.  I press record and capture the movement in action. Timing, linked with tempo, are cornerstones in the act of metronomic drumming.  But in this instance, the timing is determined by the physics of the swing. As momentum diminishes from the swings’ natural reduction in distance, there is an audible increase in frequency of the beats.  I record several takes this way, using different mics and drums, building up a set of tracks that feels like it has some sort of regularity. I know it doesn’t.

[Later the Youtube algorithm shows me a piece of music by musician Steve Reich. He had used microphones in the same way but over guitar amps, playing with the feedback. I think I like my version more.]


In the afternoon I’m joined by visual and sound artist and guitarist Gemma Thompson. Gemma is also a regular inhabitant of Toi Pōneke. We have only recently met. We have chatted a couple of times in the kitchen, and have never heard of each others’ music, other than a short clip she played to me from her phone of a recent concert. It is an interesting way to meet someone through sound rather than words. There is a confidence required to be able to let go in the company of a stranger, the urge to self-censor, and self-limit can hobble opportunities like these. It’s a good practice to work against these things.

I host an open studio on Wednesday evening. It’s an open invitation to present the current work-in-progress. And I get to demonstrate how the machine/plants work together. I am both surprised and heartened at the number of people who come through. There seems to be genuine interest in the project,  and many are willing to take part in the chance to interact with sound making. 

One demonstration that gathers attention is where I place one sensor onto the plant/fungi and the other onto a persons’ finger. No sound is made until the circuit is closed by the person with the sensor connecting with the plant. We expand this by bringing in extra people, as long as they hold hands with the person connected to the sensor and the person at the end of the line touch the plant/fungi. It’s possible to hear audible changes in the sound from this bigger loop. Sometimes, it seems to take a little longer for sound to register, and the rapidity of the signal changing seems slower. But there seems to be something awe-inspiring for people when they have the chance to become part of an organic loop, part of a connection that makes this sound. It is almost as if the connection is more important than the aesthetic.

The week wraps up with a lichen-influenced mechanism playing metal chopsticks on a snare drum. It was a useful distraction as the swing states gave Trump his victory. So much had been written already with an air of certainty about what will come.  I’m no soothsayer, I’m making no predictions. I trust the fact that Trump is not breaking the rules of physics. Negative does not exist in a vacuum. For there to be a negative-in-charge, somewhere there exists a positive.  I’ve no idea what it is. It seems invisible. But if I must remind myself of one thing, it is that the invisible also has influence, and most things deemed certain never are.

SOUNDBITTEN:

  1. One door over, a Kango hammer bites into concrete. A metal tooth drumming on the solidity of the wall, intermittent in attack, dusty in effect. It has a jangle in it’s voice, bells chime as the engine powers up. Another machine over another fence chews into spring grass. It’s a two-stroke throatiness, undulating in pitch, as it works against the resistance of rapid weeds.
  2. A bird sings twice. First from the bough high up in the Eucalyptus, air astringent with fragrance. The second as the echo returns from the bricked house opposite. The quickest reverb. Sharp like a smell, piercing to the ear like molecules to the nose. Reminds me of a text that says the smell of fresh cut grass is, in the language of the garden lawn, screaming.
  3. The show was over 20 years ago. I’d been to plenty that had left my ears ringing in the past, it usually stops after two or three days. Not this time. Loud laptops, pure digital tone, my drums in the crosshairs of the P.A. I hear it now. I’ve got strategies to cope with the constant background sound. Stress is a volume knob, a red flag, a siren’s call to attend to some inner need if the ringing starts screaming.
  4. There were only partitions between the bed bays in the long corridor that slept 80. Mine is next to the Dorm master’s door. No privacy. No quiet space. Lights out. I would hide the walkman undercovers, listen to the Sex Pistols on headphones. Lights on. Dorm master had me on display to all, getting six of the best for my sonic indiscretion. It won’t stop me.
  5. I make mixtape for road trips in the car, all the favorite songs in one place. Pack the kids and go south for summer. Along the coast, the song Motorhead comes on. At the same time, kid 2 throws up. We stop, clean up, and carry on. Down the road Motorhead returns. And like an allergic reaction, kid 2 throws up again. Stop, clean up, put the tape away, and carry on.

The Floor Holds

Somewhere in my post-viral fuzziness, I lose all my keys to all the doors I need to open. Later, I make so many trips up and down the stairs because I forget one thing after another. I am not fastidious enough when plugging cables into boxes and discover later that I have recorded one channel of audio and one channel of silence. I tell myself to be careful with the marker while doing measurements around the pictures, a purple line glaringly appears unwelcome in a margin. I download some footage I captured to make a video, I manage to lose it all in the process, and only realised after I had deleted from my photo. Argh!

That’s how a week starts. Small and inconsequential irks when held in comparison to the big issues of the day.  In a doubtful moment, I ask, “What is this for?” “What does my art add in the scheme of things?” In a world of fear, anxiety, murder and massacre art can seem like a folly, a luxury, a something that’s “nice-to-have” as one politician recently spewed.

It makes me ask of myself:

  • What ways should I think about what Im doing?
  • Am I making escapism? 
  • Am I making something that helps me/we/us step outside of the pressures of the practical issues of today? 
  • Is my thinking captured or critical? 
  • Am I making something in context or am I decontexturalizing? 
  • Am I making a brand? 
  • Am I making something meaningful or grandiose? 
  • What do I think now that that gatekeeping position has shifted?
  • What in my work addresses the bread and butter issues of the day?

Big naval gazing questions. In fact sometimes the only response to questions such as these is a big ‘Fuck it and Fuck Off’. They have a time and a place. But if it’s inertia they create then it’s not welcome. A reflective pause is different from the dead air of being inert.

The last post contained a photo of the Bread and Puppets manifesto. I hadn’t really thought too hard about why I added it other than I think the words are good. Today, I think differently. It states ‘Art soothes pain, Art fights against War & Stupidity, Art is like good bread, Art is like green trees’.

Art is like Green Trees. It makes something that makes it easier to breathe. 

It amazes me how easily something so ephemeral can remind us that we CAN imagine something different, sweeter, better, and fully welcoming. Everything constructed we see starts in the imagination. If it can be thought of, then it can be done. The algorithm of feeds, the corralling of ‘If-it-bleeds-it-leads’ news reporting, the shouting of opinionated anybodys online sucking up airspace, and the limitations of the corporate storytellers shut down the notion that the world remains full of options, opportunities and alternatives. Here we say, “Fuck it and Fuck off!”

Dunedin, 1988

I think of my own experience. Music has always made sense to me, captured and captivated me. It ‘spoke’ to me before I could speak for myself or even figure myself out. It gave me a hand up when I needed help. If you knew the young adolescent me you would have known I was trouble, or trouble was on its was to find me. But music gave me an option. In fact, I think music gave me my first real confidence. When my own mental world was at it’s bleakest, most slippery, I could always find some purchase in some musical expression to grasp. 

And I would never meet the makers of these sounds. Or in some random rare and precious moment I might. But on the whole they would never, ever, know the tiny but deeply meaningful impact they installed in this small life. And the way we obsess about things like bands, books, and such, I’m feeling confident that it happens all over the place, all the time. Small individual acts of making things better. That’s a gift to give. So massive thanks, love, applause and appreciation to all those, everywhere, who give without expectation of return.

If you’re a maker, keep making! 

Soundbites:

  1. Clocks! I hear clocks. The kind with hands and mechanisms making noise. Big ones. Ticking away in seconds. They sound close, overhead, omnipresent, inside my head. Your poor house has no clocks like these. There’s a timekeeper on the oven only. I am being haunted by time, hallucinating time, imaging time as if it were there. It’s just the solvent talking.
  2. Listen back to recording, time wobbles. A snare hit’s untidy. Out of Time. I demand the snare’s attention! To human time. Timed time. My Time. But here’s the But. What did I hear that threw my strike? Distracted tight time? Mmpatient time? Glide time. I listen to something in its Own time. Can I be brave and accept organic time? Messy time? Not My-time.
  3. Sounds like the ocean. The wet is beer and sweat. I am driftwood on a wave in a moshpit. Together it’s both dangerous and safe. I look for the band. I’ve lost the song. I cannot tell where we are or what comes next. Beats flails after beats. The bass is a weighted blanket. The guitar is the Cheshire Cat’s grin. The music holds me. It is ferocious and full of smiles.
  4. She listens small. There’s something inside it. A fragment of action, a shout from friction. If she can find the start, that doesn’t exist, and the end, that doesn’t exist, she will have made something that does exist. And repeat. Turn fractal into pattern, turn figment into rhythm. Something that was not there. But she could hear it, she just needed to find it. Here it is.
  5. I fell in love with Foley through Star Wars. I saw a demonstration of how the sounds of stormtrooper blasters was made. Somewhere in a desert, large pylons were anchored with cables, securing them to the earth. Hit the wound steal, cymbals made of metal strings. Zap! The ordinary everydayness of things became the sounds of the future.
Modular synth, Peace Lily and drum kit set up for recording.
V.M.A recording set up with swinging mic.

Mundane Utopia

I’m waiting now at the airport to return home after an intense week in Auckland. The focus of this intensity is the installing, and then opening, of the sound installation Mundane Utopia at the Audio Foundation. The Audio Foundation is an essential centre for boundary-pushing sounds explorations located in the middle of the Auckland CBD, and holds a massive role in ongoing adventurous sound making within Aotearoa, but also holds a substantial archive of what has come before. I had the opportunity to spend a week in residence there last year and this exhibition is the follow on from that.

I have never really been involved in the gallery installation process, so learning was required on the fly, but we had days to work on it as the install evolved through various arrangements.  The final layout feels organic and coherent,  and remarkably simple for the amount of effort required. The opening was well attended with a lot of playful interest in the sound project.

The following day was a full performance at the Whammy Backroom. The lineup was U R A Tooth, representing the home team, two drummers duelling like collapsing stars, unrelenting and explosive, plus bass and saxophone for any portion of the eardrum left unbruised. Then my turn for the first post-Java show. A nice touch at the end of my set was a gentle game of ‘have-the-audience-kick-the snare-and-ride-around-the-dance-floor’ while I let the the synth sound disappear. Very homely. And Hōhā, from Ōtepoti/Dunedin, on third to round out the sonically dense evening. Drums, guitar and dual vocals, improvised song-forms, with the last piece being only drums and processed vocals.  Superb.

On Saturday afternoon, I had the chance to present Office Ambiance back in the Audio Foundation. A seminar session hosted be MEL (the Musical Electronic Library located at AF), which gave me the chance to talk a bit about the process, thinking, and science behind my project. Some wonderful discussion followed, interesting questions, reflections, and similarities with others’ own creative projects.

And finally, on Saturday evening, I hosted a screening of the independent film Jogja Noise Bombing with a bit of Q&A at the end. I offered some thoughts on my recent opportunity to perform at JNB, as well as answer questions that curious minds wanted to ask.

Many thanks to the Audio Foundation and crew, Jeff, Sam, Tash, and all the others, for their support in making this series of events possible…couldn’t have done it without you all.

Mundane Utopia: Installation @Audio Foundation, Tāmaki Makaurau/Auckland

Photo: by Wawan Sutiawan, Cirebon, Java, Indonesia.
Photo say 13 June - 6 July
Kieran Monaghan presents
vegetable.machine.animal
Mundane Utopis.
There is an image of Monaghan hunched over the modular synthesizer, parts of a drum kit are behind him, in the foreground is a plant and then a lot of cables and equipment. This photo is taken from a performance in Cirebon,. Java, May 2024.
Further text
Opens 5.30pm, Thursday 13 June
Live Performance, Friday 14 June, Whanny Backroom, 8pm.
Offience Ambience artists talk, Saturday 14 June, Audio Foundation, 1pm.
Jogja Noise Bombing Screening, Saturday 15 June, Audio Foundation, 5pm.

The Audio Foundation is located at 4 Poynton Terrace, central Auckland. It is open Tuesday to Saturday from 12 to 4 pm.

Mundane
1: of, relating to, or characteristic of, the world
2: characterised by the practical, transitory, and ordinary
– Some mundane online dictionary

Utopia
“…we should reinvent utopia, but in what sense? There are two false meanings of utopia. One is this old notion of imagining this ideal society we know will never be realised. The other is the capitalist utopia … of new perverse desire that you are not only allowed but even solicited to realise. The true utopia is when the situation is so without [solution], without the way to resolve it within the coordinates of the possible, that out of the pure urge of survival you have to invent a new space. Utopia is not [a] kind of a free imagination, utopia is a matter of inner most urgency, you are forced to imagine it, it is the only way out, and this is what we need today.”
– Slavoj Žižek, Public lecture at Universidad de Buenos Aires

What could utopia sound like? What if the mundane babble of things simply going about their livingness was how it sounded? Not in a state of idealised perfection, but a continuous and dynamic state of balancing. What if we could perceive this?

This installation aims to make audible a little piece of what is already, has been, and will continue to go on for a very long time. Just beyond ‘our’ world is the world of everything else, unfolding in its ordinary, continuous, mundane way. The machine in this exhibition holds the place of a translator. It detects signals of ongoing, other-aliveness and converts into crude signals audible to human anatomy. It is an unsophisticated interpretation. It provides no comprehension, but does enable us to perceive something that is not of us, in a way that may make some sense to us.

And how shall we interact with this. The ‘other’ knows when we are here, we can hear its signal change with interaction: touch, adding water, being neglected and dehydrating, and shining UV as if we pretend to be daylight. A mundane utopia for troubled and damaged times exists already, it’s not waiting for us.

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Opens: Thursday 13 June, 5.30pm, with refreshments by Liberty Breweries
Hours: 12 – 4pm, Tuesday – Saturday
Closes: Saturday 6 July

Public events:
Friday 14 June, 8pm @ Whammy Backroom
vegetable.machine.animal live in concert
Tickets here
More info here

Saturday 15 June, 1pm @ Audio Foundation
Kieran Monaghan Office Ambience performance and artist talk
More info here

Saturday 15 June, 5pm @ Audio Foundation, free
Film Screening: Jogja Noise Bombing (Indonesia)
More info here